This weekend was not quite the exciting two days. Im getting to the point where I don't even want to go out anymore. Things are getting old and faces are becoming boring. Don't get me wrong, I love all my friends and love being around them but I think life has a new plan coming into play for me. It's almost like life is doing whats best for me and I dont really have to make the "right" decisions for me haha which is kinda nice I guess. I know in my head I have to slow down and stop driving in the fast lane but it's just so hard when the excitement and fun is right in front of your face. It's sad that it's a new year and that everything is coming to an end but it can also be a new beginning for me and that's how I have to look at it. It's sad that everything is just a memory now but thats how life is. A new year meets a new chapter in my life as well as everyone's life. It's just more space for new people to meet and new experiences made. There's alot of things I want to change and things I want to do and SOON! Getting back to what I was talking about, I feel that people and life is changing just like everything does. The friends I once hung out with are slowly but surely stepping back and the things I once did are not habits anymore. I have to focus on myself and whats going to make me a better person.
You know..it's funny because I always was the "party girl" or "party animal" but lately people are referring to me as the "drunk girl" and in my head I know that's not good and I don't like it very much at all so if I don't like something that's up to me to change it. I know thats not who I am....I don't want these to just be words of mine speaking and no actions back my statements up. I have to actually do them..One thing I hate is when people say something but they act another so like I say...I'll let my actions speak.
Friday night was once again another night that has made enemies and mistakes I'm sure people will regret. One night really can change everything but your persona on someone and what kind of person they are. My friends were having a party at their house and one of my friends boyfriends was drunk and like a drunk fool acts he started a fight with one of my good friends and they ended up fighting so then ofcourse everyone has to start fighting. To make a long story short I'll just bullet form what happened.
.Wes got a bottle smashed over his head and was bleeding tremendously out his head and he looked like Carrie (from the movie Carrie)
.Alanna got punched in the face by a dude
.Amanda got punched in the face by another guy like 4 times
.The window of the door in the duplex building got shattered
.Friends boyfriend who started the fight got a huge shiner on his eye and it was hard to even look at.
so basically...all this happened over FEET! Yeah, feet. My one good friend Akon has a phobia of feet and he told my friend who lives there boyfriend to put back on his socks because he took them off. Haha I know, pathetic. Worse of all my friends little baby boy was in his room the whole time sleeping so I wasn't worried about people acting like fools and fighting..I was worried about her baby. People don't even realize or care how dangerous and selfish they are being when they act like that. A little baby is in danger at this point and people should put their differences and calm down their temper at this point. People these days really act like immature little brats and have to ruin everything for everyone else and it really sucks. Maybe that's why I dont know about much parties going on anymore because everyone I bring or hangout with act like idiots and ruin the parties. Sad...hmmm...
(part of the 2 weeks post followed) My life.
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Wow. That was incredibly honest and candid. It speaks to the quality of your character that amidst all that drama, the thing you were thinking about was the well-being of the child. I think you make an excellent point aligning your actions with your words. It's a difficult process- for us all- but an important one, especially if we want to respect ourselves in the end.
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