summers :)

Ever since my summer of 05 I can say that was the beginning of who I' am today. I was thirteen years old and experienced so much and had so much fun with it all. My best friend Jacqui and I experienced so much together at a young age it was just so crazy. Every day was craziness and that's how it has been every summer since then. When school starts it all tames down some what but not totally but nothing is like summer. I wish I would have kept a diary on all the things I did, saw, places I went to, people I met..at least I have pictures. :) I met Jacqui at the roller rink when I was in 6Th grade and didn't start hanging out with her until the summer going into 8Th. Since we were together we were inseparable, I literally found my other half. Thats what we would say to people. We were sisters from another mother. That summer there was a group of us. There was me, Jacqui, Patty, and Britney. More later in me talking about my summers I'll explain why I'm not friends with 2 out of the 3 anymore. One of the stories is quite sad. Anyways, the whole shabamb started off with Jacqui calling me up one day asking me if I wanted to go to a party with her? I thought to myself wow, me go to a party? This is what I always wanted to do and she was in highschool at this point so she clearly knew where it was all at. I said okay and I was over at her house within 10 minutes. Her brother in law who is a D.G. at the Myth took us all to the party we were invited to. It was so much fun right from the start. I had all these guys not to mention OLDER GUYS hitting on me. I loved it. I was so use't to little boys at my school or just little boys in general around me and now I was around guys in highschool. Guys that were upperclassmen. I never really drank alcohol before, one time prior to this at this girls house and I got totally wasted, I blacked out. But, anyways I started drinking hardcore beer right away it was sort of like it came natural to me. More and more guys started looking at me and talking to me. I thought to myself wow this is the life. In my head I thought they liked me but I soon came to realize it was all a joke and thats how older guys were. I didnt have to worry about that at my little private school I went to. The whole night I was drunk and I was making out with a bunch of guys. I got like 8 dudes numbers and they got mine. I ended up doing some things that night that I regreted later on but as I look back I dont. We all make mistakes and especially at parties. I just happened to be 13 at the time. Everyone thought I was 17 and a junior at Concordia. Thats what I told everyone haha and they all believe me because I looked older. I developed and matured at a young age and could get away with it. That summer I spent with those three girls was amazing. We went to concerts, casinos, hotel rooms, fairs, parades, party after party and what topped it all off was the State fair. Wow, I tell you State Fair times during 2005 Summer was my prime. I went back to school in 8th gr. kind of a different person but not totally. I was always that girl who everyone looked up to and everyone wanted to be friends with. I was popular with pretty much anyone since I could socialize so in kindergarden. I didn't have any enemines. I some what did when with the older girls at my school because I looked older and had bigger boobs then them. To this day I think they were jealous. When I was in sixth gr the eighth gr. girls thought I wore water balloons in my bra. Come on now guys! Really? Its called pubirity. I just wanted to scream at all of them and rip of my shirt and say "look" now do you think im lying? Anyways, that summer I spent with those girls was really one of the biggest and fondest memories I will ever have. Whats funny is I was only thirteen but, it was all just so much fun. If I could go back I wouldnt change anything about it. I probably made some of the biggest mistakes I'm going to make my whole life but i wouldnt change any of it. I loved every single moment. I think it sticks out the most to me because it was all so new and refreshing and it was the start of my teenage years. We were like these little bad ass teenagers who got anything we wanted, went whereever we went. We were such little cons to everyone. Best of all I had my bestfriend all to myself. Jacqui is still my best friend but now shes 18 and works all the time, has a boy friend who acts like shes married too. Lives on her own and I barely get to see her. I'm okay with it now because I'm doing my own thing as well and met so many new people but, nothing was like when we were together.I wish it could still be her and I against the world but everyone has to grow up sometime and she did before I did. I know she wishes the same, I know she does but its never going to be like the way it was when we were younger. She really will always be a part of me. She's one of the biggest reasons I'am who I'am today. She has taught me so much. We spent our earliest teenage years together, thats when everything happens; when you mold into the person you are through out highschool and somewhat in college.



Well, I think I'm going to start off on the next summer. This one was a bit more crazy. Since that time to this time I met so many more people and experienced so much now I know what it's all about so I'm more syked to try new and more exciting things. I'm not sure if this was a good idea considering I was so down to do just about anything. I was going through a time where I loved the thrill of just about anything that was "bad" haha. Jacqui started going out with the guy Dan who was brothers of my friend Britney's boyfriend Peter. He lived in an apartment in Shoreview with two other roomates; Dan and Chuck Turner aka Hott Dan. Jacqui's boyfriend was named aka "Dipshit Dan" well, because he was a big dipshit at the time. We spent pretty much our whole summer over there. It was just unexplainable on what happened there or what didn't happen. Our new thing that we did almost every night of summer 06 was skinny dipping. Jacqui loved doing that. I didn't want to the first time we took a little trip to the nearest beach "Lake Josephine". I thought she was absolutely crazy. I didn't want to because I didn't want to strip down naked and jump in the lake with all the people I was with. So, i refused on doing it. I looked at Jacqui as this little she dare devil who really would do anything. I really looked up to her because she took life day by day living her teenage years so fully and alive. One night her and I told our parents we were having a "sleepover" somewhere haha only if they knew at the time. So, I told my mom I was going to Jacquis and when I got there we told her mom we were going to my house" so I guess a sleepover at eachothers houses haha. It was like out of a movie. We were upstairs getting ready for these three really hot guys we met a couple nights prior at the beach when Jacqui and my other friend tianna were skinny dipping, the night I didn't go in. They were from St. Thomas Academy, in frickin college! I was like fourteen at this time! Well anyways.. we were upstairs and i played a ringtone I had at the time my famous "crazy peter dance" one and I "answered" it (not really though, i was pre tending") and I pretended to talk to my mom and tell her we would be ready when she came and got us. I hung up. I knew her parents were in the kitchen right down the stairs so they could hear me. Wow, was I sneaky! So her mom believed it ofcourse she was so easy to con into anything. We finished getting ready and waited for the boys to call. Soon as they called we said "bye call you later" and ran out the door and just kept running down the street. We told them we would meet them at the Wal-Greens by her house so just in case her dad peaked out he wouldn't see the car that wasn't my moms car. I will always remember this when we were running I fell straight on my face an scraped my whole leg up, it was so bad. I had this huge scrape on my leg that started bleeding instantly. All I could do was laugh so hard and just keep running with Jacqui. Right when we saw them we jumped in the backseat and started driving. I knew we were going to a party but didnt know where. We ended up going to a party on their college campus. I was so excited. BOYS BOYS BOYS! haha thats all I could think! I ended up getting so so so drunk I told Jacqui I wanted to go skinny dipping after the party. At that moment I felt so accomplished in lying to our parents and making them believe that we were at eachothers houses I just had to do not to mention I had like 10 guys on my jock all believing I was nineteen at the time haha wow I love thinking back at this. Good times. Anyways off we went to the lake and there I go butt naked me, Jacqui, Tianna and this group of guys. I remember the feeling I had at that very moment. It was so powerful. The way i felt in the water at like 4 am. Wow! I dont even know. I thought to myself why wouldn't i want to do this every night then I thought well maybe its because i'm not sober haha so I said I just gotta drink every night and everything will be all good :) So we made a pack that whenever we can at night were all going skinny dipping no matter what or who were with and we sure did keep to that pack. So I'm going to have to say that really made that summer just awesome. Going to bed drunk with wet hair because we jumped in the lake was like awesome at the time. We would wake up and someones house we met that night with our make-up all off and our hair just nasty. Then we would be stranded in another city and hitch hike back to our house. I think back and I would never do that now but then I was down. Just to get a ride home. We would have to go home and get ready and do it all over again haha. Well, back to a little bit more at the apartment we spent mosrt of our days at. I think thats when I started smoking alot. I would smoke like 3 packs over there because they all smoked and they were just there. They were also very generous with their things aka alcohol too haha. We partied every night there. Let me tell you, things happened there where it wouldn't happen anywhere else! It was just great. We had to end our days and nights there about 2 months into our summer considering me and a bunch of us robbed a house that 4th of July. You know how I was telling you I stopped being friends with one of the girls I hung out with summer of 05 well, it was her house. I know, I know, really bad huh? let's just say I was young and stupid and the most well known I'm use't to saying still is "I just wasn't thinking" ofcourse. Me, Jacqui, Tianna, Alex, and Dana decided to go to her house and use the key I had to break in and steal a bunch of things. I at least stayed out in the car while they went in but it doesnt really matter that much because I gave them they key. Britney and her parents were out of town this weekend. That whole night was such a blur but I remember them walking out with so much stuff. I dont even remember if I was sober or drunk. I just dont know. Well we told eachother and this didnt get out to anyone and none of us would tell. Well, Jacqui was going out with britneys boyfriends brother and Jacqui wore her clothes one night like a week later over to his place and told him. Well, they ended up getting into a huge fight later that night and he told his brother ofcourse. We were all so mad at her for telling, not at the time really but once we had Britneys mom calling us threatening all of we were pissed. I woke up one morning with the sheriff on the phone with my parents not to mention speaker phone! I remember his scary voice talking to my dad. I almost shit my pants literally. I denied the whole thing for like three hours. My mom and dad believed that I wouldnt have any part in somthing like that. They made an agreement if I knew anything I would be in trouble with the law but not with them. I thought well, I'm probably going to get caught cuz none of us had a story to tell the police like if we were to get caught so I cracked to my parents. They were in shock. The police were already at Jacquis house that morning questioning her about everything. I tried calling her to tell her that I told them but when the police said I did she thought they were just lying to get her to tell. She ended up going to JDC that day and was there for about a week and for her birthday! I felt so bad because no matter what she didnt crack to them and I did. The reason why we couldnt go over to the apartment anymore is because the police went there investigating everything because we told them we went there after the robbery and they were pissed so they said we couldnt come over there. I think we ened up going there like a few weeks later thought but the energy wasn't the same. It was sad. But, most of all I was so mad at myself for doing this to Britney. We were friends with her, I had so many memories with her and she saw me as her best friend. I just couldnt believe I did this to a friend. Somthing I would never do now. It amazes me the things I did then. I really did lose a good friend and I made this friendship with someone and flushed it away over somthing so stupid. My summer got kind of dead towards the end because of what happened. Since that happened I remember still going out but I remember going to the drive- in alot with a whole bunch of people. That was alot of fun. I also lost Alex as a friend. We spent alot of time with him in the summer. He became part of our group, we would go everywhere with him. And, he was so pissed at me for telling the cops everything he didnt even want to talk to me. He would talk to everyone else but me so I felt really bad about that. I remember one night I was getting ready to go to the club with him and Jacqui and he didnt even pick me up for it. He told Jacqui no way in hell I was getting in his car. Jacqui's brother in law would get us into 16 plus at the Myth for free and we would get VIP. That was so much fun. We would go every Tuesday. We met so many people there to this day we know. We dont party or hangout with them but we still keep in contact with all of them. I remember the first time I went there. Jacqui and all her friends she came with got to go up on stage and dance in the cages. This was a big deal at the time because it was opening night of the 16 plus at Myth and we felt so cool because Jacqui was the number one D.J. theres sister in law. I remember going crazy and taking my water bottle I had and just pouring it all over my head and dancing. I think back now and think this really looked stupid because I was so not cute when I did this but at the time I felt really hot lmao. I would go there pretty much every tuesday and then leave to some guys house and party all night. I think back to all of these memories and everything I went through. It amazes me how much I really did and went through. I love it though because I got to experience everything at a young age I know what to expect now. I really did grow up fast but that was just part of my nature. My whole group of friends I had back at my private school all stuck together. Were still all friends to this day. Every teacher we had all thought somthing different of our group. They all knew we were different then the other kids but they knew we were good people and very good hearts. If it wasn't for my school and teachers I grew up with I wouldnt be the person I am today. They taught me so much and I appreciate them so much for that. I always talk about going back there and visiting them but, I just never do. No matter what I have been through or did I'm always going to remember who I am and what morals I have for myself. We all make mistakes but we should always remember who we are and what were about.