years in the beginning

From the youngest age that I can remember I always thought of my life as a movie. My family, the people around me, my friends, places I went to were always exciting and filled with so much excitement. I could just never get enough of the word "fun". I loved always being in the crowd and being in the conversation. I don't think I can come up with one story filling up the time for one whole week so I'm going to write about a series or things that has happened. When I was 9 I started going rollerskating at this place called Saints North. I would go with anyone that was willing to come up with me, the problem most of the time was my friends parents wouldn't want my mom to just drop us off and pick us up, they wanted her to stay there. But, since my mom was okay with not staying there and dropping me off and she couldnt lie to these kids moms, it was hard for me to find friends to go with. My mom always saw me as a few years older then what I always was. This was always pretty nice for me because I could do more things then other kids my age, haha accept for when I was really young I always had to come in when the street lights turned on wow did I hate that. I would go up in my parents room because their window faced towards the street and I could lay up there on their bed and look at all the other kids playing in the street. I don't know why I would do that because I'm assuming that would just make me mad seeing all the other kids still out there playing. It was probably a control issue in knowing that even though I couldnt be out there with them, I could still watch and see what their doing without me.



All my friends were boys up until 4th gr. I was a huge tom boy that loved playing with the guys and especially outdoors. I swear I could climb any tree I tried. I loved getting dirty, I remember I would always come back to the hourse with my feet all dirty and my clothes filled with things I didn't even know how they got there. I remember telling my bestfriend Joe Joe at the time that I was a boy because I thought he would like me better. He always favored the boys same with all the boys and they would all treat me differently because I was a girl so I felt left out at times. He didn't believe me no way, no how but, I still kept telling him I was. It's funny to think back on that and think I actually wanted people to think I was a boy haha. My bestfriend starting from kindergarden to 2nd gr was Nathan. Haha we would get into so much trouble together, we were the trouble makers of the school. We ended up getting split apart in 2nd gr from our teacher because we would cause too much trouble when we would hangout. So we ended up kind of drifting apart and he got a new bestfriend "Dylan". Wow was I jealous of him..I felt so betrayed but, I guess it had to happen because literally we couldn't hang out. My best friend who I have now Kirsten and two other girl Sami and Becca took me in as kind of like their little pet haha and formed me more girly. By the time third gr I was wearing chokers around my neck and I remember wearing a skirt and a blouse for picture day wow that was a big change. Pretty sure all the guys thought right there and then I was a "girly girl" now hhaa. I went to a little private school over by house that was really small. We were like one big family. I went there from k-8 so I never experienced a public school until 9th gr but ESPL( my private school) was almost like a public school. This was a school like no other, if I could I would make it into a highschool and tell everyone to go there. It was so awesome, those teachers basically raised me besides my parents and taught me everything I knew..




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