Changes :)

I like to look back on everything that I do and have no regrets. I usually have the feeling of regret at the time I do something that I don't like but later on I think well, ya know things happen and there's nothing I can do about it. You know the good old saying "Everything happens for a reason". I can honestly say there is nothing I would have changed about this past year. I loved everything about it and had so much fun. I went through a lot of struggles and obstacles and it was so hard to deal with it all. Sometimes it felt like I lost everything not literally but, mostly within myself and I felt alone and scared of life but I got through everything and look, here I' am. When I think of life is always has me thinking for a really long time. The definition is infinity x a million. I met so many amazing people and spent so much of my time with all of them. I did a lot of stupid stuff this past year and made a lot of dumb choices but it all played out in the way it was suppose to. I don't like to hold back on anything and I just live life everyday day by day. I use 't to always think about what I'm going to do tomorrow or the next day and what I 'm going to do about one certain situation but honestly right now these are my prime years I'm young and healthy and right now all I'm doing is hope for the best. Of course I'm not going to just sit back and do whatever I want and let things flow out I want to try to start doing things more productive with my life and experience new things that I never done before involving the world and traveling. I got down on myself a lot this past year over really little stupid things and I shouldn't of let all of it get the best of me but, I did and I don't regret anything. Everything made me stronger and more aware of myself. I know what I'm capable of and I know what I'm about. I love to test myself and see what I'm going to do next and what that will be I don't know yet but what the time comes I'll know. One big thing Ive learned is "it always could be worse". When I just think my life is crashing down and there's nothing to look forward to I'm always wrong but I think well, my life could be like this and I could not have this. Everyone has hard times but it can always be worse. When I'm having a bad day and the sun is still shining, I shine. :) I'm so thankful for everyone that's in my life good and bad because in some way they are all a part of who I' am and what I do. I'm thankful for the little things especially music aka my playlist haha. Music is such a big part of who I' am and within the past couple years I really realized this. It can make my whole attitude do a 180. One thing for the next year is I want to start being more nice to people. I know I'm a nice person but, I want to start smiling at people I don't even know because that could literally make someone's day. I know when I'm walking in a store or in the mall and I walk past someone I dont know and they smile, it kind o puts a little smile on my face and that does mean somthing. Overall this past year was wonderful and I couldn't of asked for more and hopefully the next year is just as good and it's one step closer to the next year and whatever life has in store for me.