just think

Lastnight I went to treatment. Im going to have to say it was probably one of the best nights there so far. I was really nervouse going there due to some nights prior to lastnight. But, the conversation was one of the best. Ofcourse it was an argument on what WE thought about space, life, the last day on earth, how we were made etc. I guess you could say "deep" things to talk about. Sometimes I get into these moments where all Im doing is thinking about these things. I told my counselor this is why I dont smoke weed haha. Thinking about life and what other life is out there really amazes me. My religion believes that Earth is the only planet with life on it and we came from man. As I'm getting older Im finding more and more things about the worlds and facts are being thrown at me from left to right and I really think its testing my true beliefs on things which I'm not liking very much. I dont like to be tested on my faith and my thoughts on what I think and how I've been brought up. But, we cant help our minds and where it goes to. Our mind can go into another world, another place whenever we want it to. Thinking about what could really be out in space just blows my mind away. Everything is so huge and so far away our mind cant even comprehend it all. We only know whats in our solar system, if that. This boy that Im in treatment was saying some really cool things that really caught my interest and it was a really good discussion. What if theres other solar systems out there just like our milky way that has other life on it. What if we really could travel in time through a worm hole and go to another world in space? I just dont know anymore. I mean how big really is space? I mean theres just so much out there. Another topic we talked about was evolution. How we came from apes? Hmm..this one is hard for me to believe. I just think its really obserd to think this way. How could this possibly be true? Humans are such amazing creatures the way our brains work, how we function all due to our brain, how intelligent people are..all the new inventions were making every day, every year, every new generation. Or how about this question? Are we really here? Is this really happeneing? Was I really born? Is life going on right now? Am I typing right now, moving my fingers, staring at the screen? I guess life just amazes me when I really think about it and everything around me just is there. How I'm here right now in this time of the world. My face, my hair, my eyes. People say God isn't real and the world just appeared and we just came from animals. There has to be a higher power out there and the way God is discribed could be in my eyes the only one that could have done all these marvelous things. Theres is no way we just came from animals, plants whataver. I guess thats where my faith plays in. People say the Bible messes up in what it says. I feel that people underestimate that book very much but every other science book or any other book people believe instantly. I dont really know why I believe in him, I do but thats just where I have faith and its like I know. I dont have an explanation its just there in my mind,heart, and soul. I cant get mad for other peoples thoughts and ways of thinking. I'll listen but it will never change my thinking. I have caught myself doubting but I cant let that happen. Its just my faith getting tested and I know that. I usually end the conversation in " I guess we'll just have to wait and find out".