free write

As of today I'm having a really good day so far. This morning I woke up to my mom screaming at me to wake up and I got really pissed off and told her to "shut the hell up". Then ofcourse she got really mad and left the house. I felt bad but, then I quickly got over it. Every day I have different feelings and the way I feel is really different. I'm sure thats the way it is for everyone. I'm just writing a short free write now because once again I cant focus on my writing and the assigment. Today Is Friday so I'm feeling very happy. Every weekend it brings joy to my eyes and ears with all my surroundings around me :) My friend Jeri is shadowing me today so it shall be more fun today also. I really hope tonight goes smoothly with whatever were doing or where ever we go. The past couple weekends have been really fun because there has been no drama! I'm interested in who will be calling me tonight because a certain someone hasnt called me all week and im very upset about it and usually we see eachother on fridays. It's whatever though, I'm not trippin. I'm having very mixed emotions right now with alot of things. I'm feeling kind of crazy right now and some things are rushing in and out of my mind. I hope I dont do somthing crazy tonight haha ;) Its going to be interesting because sometimes I dont know what I'm capable of especially if I'm under the influence on a few things. I do things that I regret the next day and I hate it but I get over it pretty fast. Theres one thing that I cant get out of my head from last weekend though and its like making me feel sick to my stomach. I dont know how I could do that and be so hypacritical you know? Like I say all these things about relationships and go and do another it just fuckin pisses me off and I feel very gross about it all. I think thats why maybe things are going the way it is. I believe in karam and when you piss her off she will come twice as hard and bite you in the ass, I dont care what people say, karma is true and shit happens...